While we were at the mall we saw Chip Brockwell. Chip use to be my brother's best friend in high school. His parents were with him & they looked the same. Man, that brought memories back to me! And Chip, he looked good. He has a little daughter, but is no longer married.
All in all today was a good day.
- Location:home
- Mood:
happy
So, I am going to start keeping a food journal to make sure I am eating properly & I can show the dietician when I go back to see her in a few weeks.
I've just been so busy. No excuses, but its true.
Well, one thing that has happened since I've last written is that I'm well on my way to losing weight again. I'm in the low 200's which is considerable better than when I first started. I've been doing really well as far as my eating. One thing I have really tried hard to do is to stop eating when I'm comfortable & not entirely full. I've even had to take home salads because I'm doing that. So, I usually eat what I can & the left overs I eat for dinner or lunch the next day. My next goal is to try & train myself to eat slower. I know that eating slower tricks your mind into thinking you're fuller faster. That's easier said than done for me because I've always been a fast eater. I don't inhale my food or anything, but I am a fast eater.
I have been working a part-time job as security in an apartment complex. I've been setting the money aside to do something really nice next year for my birthday or for a trip or something. I've got $600 saved so far. I'm keeping the money at home in a box just for the occassion. I know if I put it in the bank I'll spend it. This money is specifically set aside for some sort of trip that I plan on taking.
My friend Robin called me one day & said that she thought
it would be a good idea if we got together in February & just
had a "girls" weekend. I thought that would be great because
Robin's birthday & my birthday is in February. Denise's birthday
is in April. So, I think it would be great. These are the two
women in my life who I'm extremely close to & they know each
other & it will be great to just hang out. I thought about asking
Enid to go, but that girl has too many issues. Robin did ask Anita
if she wanted to go. Anita's birthday is in March. So, I think it
will be great! I'm not sure if Denise knows Anita or not, but she
did go to Eddy & Baker with us.
it would be a good idea if we got together in February & just
had a "girls" weekend. I thought that would be great because
Robin's birthday & my birthday is in February. Denise's birthday
is in April. So, I think it would be great. These are the two
women in my life who I'm extremely close to & they know each
other & it will be great to just hang out. I thought about asking
Enid to go, but that girl has too many issues. Robin did ask Anita
if she wanted to go. Anita's birthday is in March. So, I think it
will be great! I'm not sure if Denise knows Anita or not, but she
did go to Eddy & Baker with us.
Anyway, overall, things are going well for me. Just been really busy. My sister-in-law is having another baby. He is due December 25th. His name will be Jason William Lee. I have no intentions on giving him combination birthday & Christmas gifts if he's actually born on or near December 25th. I think its just wrong to give them combination gifts, especially as a child. Now when he is older & if I give him a really expensive gift like a large amount of money or a car, then that may be considered a combination gift, but not as a child will I do that.
I'm still at the shotgun instructor course in Forsyth, Georgia. Forsyth is south of Atlanta. Atlanta & surrounding areas were hit with severe thunderstorms & some tornados.
I stated the above to tell about the dream I had last night. I had a dream where I went to visit Robin & her family. When I got there, they were packing to go out of town for the weekend. (I have no clue why I was going there if they were going out of town.) Derrick, my ex-boyfriend was there. He was going with them. Derrick kept trying to talk to me. I wouldn't talk to him. I was being very petty. He was only trying to be polite, but I wouldn't speak to him. He would say hello & ask how my family was doing. I would just look at him & then either keep packing for Robin or I would just look at him without saying a word. Derrick had almost shoulder length hair that had been straightened & it was blonde. He looked rather good with his hair like that. Anyway, I don't normally have dreams with Derrick in it. I haven't had a dream with him in it for years. It was strange.
With all that stated, I woke up this morning & I turned on the local news. What comes on the local news? It talks about the bad weather that hit McDonough, Georgia. McDonough is where Derrick lives. Strange...huh.
- Location:GPSTC
- Mood:
exhausted
I did get a new perspective for firearms instruction yesterday. It's literally been 10 years since I've been a student in a firearms class. I am a firearms instructor. I mostly do pistols. So shotguns & long guns are a new breed to me. However, the fundamentals of firearms is the same with pistols, shotguns, or long guns. I had the instructors talked to me like I was an idiot. It was hard not to get defensive about it. However, I tried to soak in what they said. I got a new perspective on the side of a student. It will make me a better instructor because I have been reminded of how a student sometimes feels.
- Location:GP
- Mood:still fighting being sick
Ok, so today is my birthday. I'm not at home. Technically I'm at work, but I'm in training class for the week. And today I have moved my age to 32! Yeah, those who know me know my real age, but that's beside the point. 32 is the number for a couple of years!
- Location:GPSTC
- Mood:
still congested
So, I had to weigh in & get measured today.
I only lost 1 lb. 1 freakin' pound!
On a good note, I did lose 6.5 inches overall.
Bust...............1.5 inches
Waist.............1.0 inch
Abdomen......3.0 inches
Thighs............1.0 inch
She actually measured me 3 times in the abdomen. She asked me if my pants were fitting differently & I said no, not that I noticed. I didn't lose any in my hips & that's why I don't notice the difference. The 1.5 inches for the bust was actually lost in the back area.
So, yea for me!
Just had to share!
- Location:office
- Mood:
giddy
This morning I go to my mom's house. She looked at me & said I looked tired. I was...I had been called out at 1:30am to a meth lab. I told her that I only got to the gym once this past week. My goal is to go to the gym at least 5-6 days a week. I didn't get to the gym because of work. My gym opens at 6:30am & closes at 9pm. All last week I ended up going to work from 7a-10p. I think there was one day that I was able to squeeze in a workout. The following is the odd yet interesting conversation between my mother & I.
Mom: What do you think about lypo?
Me: That it would hurt.
Mom: I seen it on tv. Are you scared?
Me: No, but do you know how much that would cost?!
Mom: Check into it.
Me: Are you serious? Again, you have no idea how much it costs!
Mom: More than $10,000?
Me: Depends.
Mom: I don't care. Check into it.
Weird. Very weird. We talked some more & we've come to a decision. I told her to let me try to lose the weight this year. I said that if it's still on me then for my birthday next year that can be my birthday present. In reality, I would like to lose about 50-60 lbs. & have the abdominal plasty for the loose skin. I don't think 50 lbs. in a year is too much to ask to lose in a safe way. I did ask her that if I lost the weight & wanted a breast lift could I have that. She said yes.
Over all, this entire conversation was just weird. She says that she knows that it's harder to lose weight as you get older & that's why she's offering it. I know her heart is in the right place. I talked to Robin & told her the conversation & she says I ought to go for it, especially since my mom is offering to pay for it.
- Location:home
- Mood:
tired
Well, I won't know for sure until tomorrow, but Jonnie did go to bat for me. Not to the Sheriff, but to a Major. Jonnie told the Major that I will give 100% no matter where I go, but that I wasn't ready & that I do 90% of the paperwork & administrative work for the unit. Not just for him, but for the entire unit. That's 5 seperate agencies. The Major said he understood. So, we are hoping that the conversation will leak to the Sheriff. And yes, Jonnie is going to bat for me tomorrow in the meeting. I still think that the Sheriff has made up his mind & that I'm leaving the unit. Ultimately I know if I go to Training, that is where I need to be. It's my "nitch".
However, like I told Jonnie today...I never thought I wanted Metro until I got here. I always knew, even when I was at the jail that I wanted to ultimately go to Training. At the jail I didn't even want to go to patrol. Metro was a gift I never knew I wanted until I got it. Training is what I want, but on my terms. I know that Training is where I can do the most good & will shine. It is my specialty & I know it. But Metro is an unexpected gift that I never knew I wanted until I got it. I knew going to Metro that it is a temporary assignment. I never knew I'd grow to love it as much as I do. And believe me, it didn't take long. Even being up to my eyeballs with 5 cases & so much paperwork that I can't see straight & the idiotic redundancy of it all...I love it. I'm at my best under the stress. I didn't think that I would have such a difficult time having to let it go.
- Location:Home
- Mood:
anxious - Music:listening to Everybody loves Raymond
Well, I started Curves today. I joined yesterday, but didn't start until this morning. According to my height & "true" age, I should weigh 135 lbs. Ok, we all know that ain't happening. If I could get to 150 lbs., I'll be happy. If I were 135 lbs. I'd look like I was smoking crack & would be drug tested quite frequently at work.
I am not a morning person by any stretch of the imagination. I have to be at work at 9am. I wake every morning at 6am. I don't normally start getting ready for work until 7:30a or 7:45a. So, I am at Curves at 6:30a when they open. I work out for 30 minutes & by the time I'm home it's actually time for me to get ready for work. Sounds good if you ask me.
On a more heavier note, I may be coming out of Metro. It's killing me. My gut tells me that I'll be leaving. I'll know for sure tomorrow after the meeting. I'm preparing for the worst. The worst case scenerio is to be fired or go back to the jail. I've been told that more likely than not, I will go to Training. Don't get me wrong, training is where I'd ultimately love to go. However, I want to leave Metro on my terms & when I'm ready. I'm not ready. But there are no negative points to me going to Training other than I'm not ready to leave Metro. But I'm preparing myself for the inevitable. My boss in Metro hasn't put up the argument for me to stay yet, but I think there's no changing the new Sheriff's mind. I could be wrong. I'm 98% sure I'm leaving Metro. I hold out 2% of a glimmer of hope that I can stay. But I'm getting my things together if that's any indication on how I think it will work.
- Location:work
- Mood: pessimistic
- Music:Midnight by Jeff Lorber
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